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[13 Jul 2006|08:32pm]
I want my life back! I'm so tired of doing the same old thing every day: work, go to class, study, go to bed. Add salt and repeat.

So tomorrow, I'm studying with a girl in my English/History class and then we're going down to Fourth Street Live. No idea what we're going to do, but if it involves bars, that's ok I guess, but I'm not drinking of course. We'll see. And then Sunday I'm spending most the day at the races. And when am I going to write my huge English paper due on Monday, you ask? No idea. Work on it tonight and Saturday, I suppose. My professor told me at our conference yesterday (we talked for 45 minutes! WTF?!) I'm an excellent student and should be in 105 not 101 so I guess that is making me lazy and a little too confident. I just don't want to write this paper. Plus I have a History test Monday.

So this weekend I really should be studying hard and getting stuff done, but instead I'm going to have fun and do homework when I can. Because if I don't, I might go insane. Everyone has to have a break. Mine just came at a bad time. But it seems I have a test or something due every time I turn around. 3 week fall break, here I come.

What is new....nothing except I started working for the Frank Brothers yesterday, so I now walk 5 horses every morning and I now get to spend most of my time on the other side of the barn which is great because that side is so much fun. I walk my butt off, but its worth it I guess--I just don't want to piss off Lisa (assistant trainer). She remains in a state of perpetual grouchiness and I do not want to mess with that fragile state of homeostatsis because I have witnessed what happens when you cross her....and ouch. But I know that sooner or later she'll find something to nag me about...holding the shank a couple of inches too short maybe. Or something. But she did smile at me today. For the first time ever I think. That's an improvement at least.

I'm going to take my camera to Churchill Saturday since I'm just going to have fun and not work, so I'll have a crapload of pictures. I just hope it doesn't rain. Anyhoo, a few of the guys are going to let me walk to the paddock with them and slip into the grandstands. Free admission, yay! It's not cheating, I swear. Ok, maybe just a little.

I think I'm going to go make some scrambled eggs and take a shower, not in that order. I'm trying to wait for my iPod to charge a little so I came block out my upstairs neighbor's loud stereo system (um, why is he listening to disco? To each his own I suppose). And then type up my history notes and hit the hay. My dogs are hurting...I have a huge blister on my big toe that is killing me.    /whinging

[30 Jun 2006|01:27pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I'm sitting in English right now. We're doing library research, so we all have computers. Thank God for that. Snore.

I can't ever remember being this tired. I studied my butt off for finals and worked on top of that. There's drama going on at work--I really don't need that right now, I have enough of my own problems. So I'm seriously thinking about working for Steve Flint or something, because this Cesare guy is really pissing me off with his bull crap.
1 hour 'til class is over. I just woke up like 20 minutes ago, I set my alarm for 12:40, just enough time to wake up, grab a Snickers bar from the machine, and jog over to the library. I think I forgot to turn my alarm off, so its probably beeping right now. Ooops. 

Man I'm tired. The two year old jerked me all over the place this morning, and reared up on me twice again. He's so stupid. Or else he has EPM or something. 

I'm moving tomorrow and I really don't know how to feel about that. I guess I'm just too tired to think much about anything. 4:30 am is starting to get to me. Anyhoo, I have to pack up some of my shit tonight and really don't feel like it. I have to go get my key at 5 or 6 this evening, and make sure they cleaned the carpet and stuff. I think I'll feel better after this weekend--I have Sunday, Mon, and Tues off and get to go home Sun. I'm going to ride my horse and see how I do with my stirrups high. Granted, he's not a Thoroughbred, but it'll give me an idea of how hard being an exercise rider is going to be. But its something I would love to do--ride horses everyday--and will get paid really well, possibly over $500 a week.

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Same old, same old [26 Jun 2006|12:16am]
[ mood | tired ]

I'm so tired of being tired and feeling overwhelmed. I know it will all be over in four days, and I can go home and have a long weekend with my family and my horse....I can't wait for that kind of freedom again. But getting to that point is the hardest part. I want to do good on this paper and on my tests. Its just so much crammed into every week, I struggle to keep up and end up feeling so overwhelmed...I don't do anything but study and go to work. I just hope things change after these two classes end because I'm not liking my current schedule. Things will be different though, because English and History are my favorite subjects, and my class time (5:30 - 8:30) will better fit my work schedule. No more boring 9:40 bio lectures!

I did get alot accomplished today. Not as much as I would like, but enough. I went back to Churchill after my nap at around 2:30 to interview Gerry for my paper. I almost didn't, but I'm glad I did because now I think I have enough material to work with. I really need to interview one more person but I just don't think I'm going to have the time. So, other than that, I didn't work on The Paper from Hell, per se, but I did do some much needed studying for Biology. This section (reproduction) is much easier than that genetic crap we did last week.

Work was good today. I decided that I enjoy it so much more when I'm not tired, which is why I really try hard to get enough sleep. Last week I didn't, and I got so tired while I was hotwalking. Which isn't good when your handling a horse that has the potential to kick your head off. But yeah, I love my job when I'm not tired, but I think that pertains to any job!

Lets see, what else...this morning Liliana went down with Nick. According to Rudy, a horse was coming in the gap acting all crazy, so Liliana, being the nut case she is, decided to be crazy, too, and reared straight up. She lost her balance and fell on her back, and in the process, landed on Nick who fortunately, was fast enough to roll out of the way without getting more than a slightly squashed leg. I was getting ice at the time, and somebody from Hal Wiggin's barn told me we had a loose horse come off the track, but I was like, um, no we don't. But it was her. Mean old cow. I'm just glad Nick wasn't hurt...only extremely pissed off. I don't blame him, but man, Aussies have bad tempers. heh.

I can't wait until this weekend. Part of me wants to stay in Louisville and organize my appartment and sleep, the other part wants to go home and sleep and eat my mom's home cooking. But I think I'll go home. Organizing my apartment isn't that important, at least not for now. It'll be weird to move in and leave town right after, though.

Wow. I have to be up in four hours. Ciao!


Hola.... [24 Jun 2006|10:55pm]
[ mood | content ]

So I figured I'd start this up again. What the heck, right? Its been a while since I've been on lj....I deleted my old journal a while ago because I just didn't really like the blogging scene that much. But that was a few years ago so maybe it's changed. Maybe. Or it could have to do with the fact that at that time, I didn't have any real life friends on my friends list, but now I'm at college so that will probably be different. (Hi, Marianne!)

I don't know yet whether I like my layout, but I can't believe I remembered all the css codes...why can't I remember other stuff? Like phenotypic ratios? Oh, and just to clarify--my username refers to hotwalker as in someone who walks out horses that have returned from the racetrack, hence, someone who walks out hot horses--just so there wasn't any confusion, because the connotations of that word could be a little....misinterpreted.

I should be working on my advocacy essay, but I haven't even gotten to the obligatory 'my day was....' portion of the entry, so here we go.

My day was weird. It started off weird and the trend kept going. Or maybe getting up at 4:30 in the morning slowly alters your perspective on things, or just melts your brain altogether, but anyhoo. Work has been kinda dull the past few days, but today more than made up for it. Wow. In no particular order:

-  a groom in Tom Amoss's barn was kicked in the head around seven this morning. It was definitely one of those 'man, that could be me' moments. The poor guy was out cold for at least 10 minutes. Apparently a two-year-old nailed him square in the noggin. Um, ouch.

- A Mexican with gold teeth and long scary fingernails asked for my number and wanted to know if I smoked 'good stuff'. That speaks for itself I think. Needless to say, I'll be detouring around Steve Flint's barn tomorrow.

- I didn't get paid, yet Darren told me yesterday that Billy left our checks in the tack room before he left for Florida. So I don't know what is up with that. Especially since Gerry got his check today...WTF? Oh well. I make $200 a week--I don't need to complain I suppose.

- Rudy apparently has not one kid, but a gaggle of them, and apparently, his family made a trackside visit today. I was officially freaked out, much to Tony's amusement.

Ok, I've really got to start doing some-school related work. Finals in Biology and Archaeology are Thursday...I know I'll do well in Arch, but Bio? Not so sure. I pretty much bombed the last test. Having a a huge ass paper due the day before finals doesn't help much.

Work will be busy tomorrow...Bill is coming back from Florida with a couple more 3 year-olds (we've had only four horses for almost a week), plus I have to interview a few people for my paper. When I get back from work, I need to do some major organizing since I'll be moving out of Kurz next weekend, and I need to call Warrendale and get a slot for Keeneland, something I've been putting off for weeks.

Somewhere in there I guess I'll sleep and eat.


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